4th-string

So I am really not sure how I feel about you anymore... I feel like you were serious when you said that I am "4th-string" espeically concidering things that I have been told about you & your reputation. And I really don't know if I can trust you. After all, it wasn't that long ago that you decided that you weren't going to talk to me anymore & then a couple weeks later you change your mind. Then to top it off, a couple days later you change your mind back & don't talk to me anymore. Then just the other day you are all buddy-buddy with me again. It seems to be just a bit too much back & forth for me. I never know when you are going to change your mind again & I am trying to keep myself from getting too attached just in case you do. It's not fair to me because I really like you, I'm not sure why, but I do. And I'm pretty sure you know how much I like you & I think that that is exactly why you are doing this to me...because you know that I will still be there when you need me. But you know what...I'm not going to be the girl that you only call when you are lonely. I want more & I deserve more. And if you are not willing to give that to me, please tell me now, because then I can stop wasting my time. I am not going to be the girl to lower my standard & settle for a guy that just calls me up from "4th-string" when he needs me.